actuality.log

I rock. It went … very differently from what my nightmares had portrayed.
Fortune favours the brave, and occasionally, the foolhardy. Nothing officially stands in my way now from getting that PhD […]

Will the world love me any less if I screw up tomorrow?

Or on the brink anyhow. This is madness, I just hope I don’t do something weird during the test itself. (Read: Pass out, cry, just fall down and start screaming in pain, get all defensive and start blaming arbitrary things for lack of […]

No, I don’t have any delusions of being able to pull these off.

I’ve been afraid and tense. Very. Which in my world seems to be the only time I work so it cannot really be any other way. I hope I don’t pass out during the test itself under the pressure. (Yes, that’s happened too. […]

I don’t feel so good. As in, I don’t really know. I’m pretty sure it’s in my head. My stomach’s all knotted up and I just.. I just wasted all day. I’ve been constantly flip-flopping between cockiness and seemingly justified goofing off, and […]

I’ve just spent the past two days with no human contact. And I mean the real deal. No leaving home, no roomies, (obviously) no phone, no email, no im, not even commenting on web logs. The world must have assumed I was studying […]

I’ve finally been cracked.
Apparently showers are where I get most of my thinking done. I just realized events in the recent (and not so recent) past have finally gotten to me. […]

Damn I hate marathons. No, not the kinds in which people run insane distances just because they can. Well, actually, I’m not particularly fond of those either. I mean these marathons on TV, where they show 192 episodes of the same awesome show […]

I would just like to let the world know I was finally able to force myself to go out and run for forty minutes today. This is huge, because I have finally acknowledged the fact that not everything will necessarily be handed to […]

Today was, well, quite awesome. The feeling of being abandoned is slowly being morphed to a sort of free. (Imagine the puppet in that wireless laptop ad running around the lawn all unthetered.) I’m not happy happy. I just feel.. free. Not accountable.
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I was up late last night all alone fishing around with colour tables trying to come up with combinations for art someone else’d find cute, hash and rehash humour ideas and fun wordplay that I hoped would make someone else smile, go through […]

I got back my check.

Remember kids, the moral of the story is, no, not to check if you’ve pasted […]

I was planning to put something else down, but now all of it is a blur in my head. I don’t know what it was, and I don’t care. I’ve got goose bumps all over and all my hairs are standing straight up.
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No prizes for guessing which little tree was ostracized by all other trees because he found flowers prettier than leaves.
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