Have you ever had that sickening feeling when you know you don’t want something, but also know that deep down, you really need it? It’s such a paralysing emotion to experience; being unable to move neither forward nor back, stuck only in the harsh realisation that whatever you do, you’re about to end up unhappy, unsatiated, or both.
I believe life would be simpler if it were more like fairy-tales; where what’s right and what’s wrong is starkly delineated. Without any shades of grey to get lost in, you can clearly paint yourself black, or white.
With me thus far?
Good, now replace the whole spiel about “being painted black or white” with “desiring women or men.”
Have you ever had that sickening feeling when you know you don’t want something, but also know that deep down, you really need it?
Ok, so…you’re saying you need a man?
Ah, if it were only that simple.
Not only can’t I put my finger on what I want (now), I am saying that I can’t possibly put my finger (ever) on one or another—things are not as black and white as we’ve been led to believe.