Sunday, December the 26th, 2004

I’m so glad this happened.

I was having some issues with her weight and general friendliness. I didn’t particularly peel through the rough exterior to get a peek at her sensitive insides. Though I prided myself at being able to ‘push all the right buttons’, she was a struggle from the get go. It always seemed like so much work to get the response I wanted, and even that seemed unnatural and forced.

I was, at points, beginning to question whether the initial attraction clouded the harsh reality, she just wasn’t right for me. But a most remarkable thing has happened over the past few days. We decided to use this time off to attempt to get closer. I just knew getting away for a long weekend and spending a lot of time together will turn things around. I got to hold her close in ways and do things I hadn’t imagined possible before. It felt perfect. I got to know so much more about her than I had over all the other time I’d spent with her.

I realise how into her I am. How much the ex doesn’t matter. How special it’s capable of being if the settings are right. I am quite certain she’s the one I want.

For now, anyway.

Did I say ‘her’ all along? I meant ‘it’, my new camera. The old one, though still insanely awesome in my heart, is dead. And so begins a new dawn.

Another day, another relationship.

(Yes, I am a geek. And I need a life.)

This is a printer-friendly version of the journal entry “Extended weekend together” from actuality.log. Visit to read the original entry and follow any responses to it.

Comments are closed.

8,942,168 people conned into wasting their bandwidth.