Monday, August the 18th, 2003

During some hard core site update time, I actually read through the stuff on some of the pages after ages. I realized one page in particular, about me had the worst title in the world. It’s not about me in any sense of anything. Then thought about it a bit, and realized how hard it is to really put it down in words. This is a rough draft start. This, obviously, won’t be replacing that material any time soon, but should work its way in somewhere, eventually.

I’d like comments and so on. (I seriously doubt the usefulness of even begging for comments. I mean, come on people, I know you read it. The funky site counter goes up like a 150 every two days.)

I am a human male.
I was never given a choice.
I like choice.
I don’t like choosing.

I make rational decisions.
I was never a child.
I don’t like being cold and mature.

I try very hard to be rational.
I can melt.
I see the difference between rational and cold.
I am a bonafide geek.

I preferred machines to people.
I am an introvert.
I am addicted to technology.
I fear the phone like the plague.

I am not a hypocrite.
I don’t eat meat.
I consume animal derivatives.
I don’t sugar coat my words.

I say very little of what’s on my mind.
I need to be heard.
I love to listen.

I like to sing.
I don’t like to exert myself.
I am not fit.

I should play outside more.
I have gamed too much.
I did read a lot.
I then discovered TV.
I have my priorities warped.

I don’t live life.
I survive.
I am content.
I don’t try very hard.

I don’t need to try very hard.
I am very good at what I do.
I only do what I am very good at.
I do very little.

I know a lot.
I know very little about anything that matters.
I don’t leave my comfort zone.

I enjoyed being alone.
I need to be alone to function properly.
I did melt.
I don’t fear intimacy.

I am not brave.
I am patient.
I am understanding.
I am not emotional.

I make people laugh.
I do try.
I make people cry.
I don’t need to try.

I play by the rules.
I always look for flaws in rules.
I don’t lie.
I don’t place morals above all else.

I haven’t tasted alcohol.
I drink too much pop.
I don’t drink enough water.

I can swim.
I am scared to death of being in a pool.
I enjoy travelling.
I fear new experiences.

I am predictable.
I am quiet.
I am not entertaining.
I fear uncertainty.
I am in awe of dynamism.

I observe things.
I forget easily.
I am learning how to use a camera.
I understand.
I need to know.

I feel I am smarter than most.
I feel I am not as happy as most.
I am not sad.
I am organized.
I appear disorganized.

I need a haircut.

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3 Responses to “I”

  1. Vigvg says:

    This kinda post is really tough to comment on.. Really dont have much to say, except, yes most of that stuff is right. But it would be, since you said it.

    And the counter, well.. refreshes, especially from shouldn’t increase the hits ! ;)

  2. wahgnube says:

    That’s the thing that bothers me, I can’t get the domain split up from sf for the hits. Atleast for the rest of the site I know I account for pretty much 30% of everything.

    I just extrapolated the same thing here.

    I also have got to switch to holoscan so people need to check in at regular intervals to be a) able to comment b) make sure their comments aren’t lost.


  3. wahgnube says:

    “most of that stuff is right”

    Well, that’s a start. Which ones are not?

6,896,972 people conned into wasting their bandwidth.