actuality.log

Looking back at the past pattern, you know the, HAPPY sad HAPPY sad HAPPY sad…., pattern, today I should be sad. But I am not really. We talked for the longest time today. And it wasn’t nearly as strained as it has been […]

Guess who was handed a codebase that was at the time capable of handling ~9 million variables.
Guess who took about a month and scaled that up to over 460 million, while finding problems in the original code, fixing them and sending patches back […]

Baby’s got blue skies up ahead
But in this I�m a rain cloud
You know she needs a dry kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
I�m losing you
I�m losing you
Ain’t love the […]

I fished up. Big time. I feel horrid. My tummy is all quesy. I really am a mean person.
I am not risking croaking here in this state. I chose to do […]

Today was an exceptionally amazing day. Oh my god am I happy. But you do realize it is not going to last don’t you? I mean, I do, so I am going to be exceptionally amazingly happy and that’s that. We take our […]

I will keep coming back to this at different points of time because screaming into space is strangely therapeutic. If what I say bothers you, don’t read it. Just leave. I need this and you know it.
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What is it with me huh? I am the most rational guy I know. I am cold, calculated, sane. I am realistic. I am more than realistic, I am pessimistic. Where is there room for the heart? Where is there room for hanging […]

Under most normal circumstances, I would have cracked up every single time I heard the woman say it, but I was having a very hard time trying to laugh.

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I made some “me time” a little while ago to just get out and clear my head. It isn’t too much clearer, but I noticed the sunset and now slowly beginning to melt snow seemed happy together, in their little orange world. I […]

One of those days again. The feeling of loss with never real gain days. They suck so much.
I’ve been trying stuff to get the picture pages automation enabled. I am leaning […]

Will someone please explain to the retarded weather fairy woman this isn’t the north pole?

But then again, it is […]

Hmm. This isn’t so bad really. I am more than used to it by now. Maybe I’ll just move into some corner of the uni sometime. It won’t make a difference to anybody, and will be a lot easier on me.

General cluelessness and stupidity warning - IAJAG*.
I think a woman and a guy can be totally happy together, purely on the basis of him being her lifelong (extremely hard to do, […]

I listen to people. People know I listen to them. Now this is all fine and good.. usually. There are times, however, when this makes events more complicated than they have to be. For instance, when someone comes up to me with […]

For some reason, I remembered the work pages that have been left in limbo for a month or so with nothing really populated. Decided to get the preliminary work for the research pages equation rendering done today. I am happy with the results. […]