Actually

Yesterday wasn’t so bad. It’s not like I spent the entire day staring at a bunch of consoles spewing out compiler noise. I was doing something far more fun. Volunteered for this thing where I cut out these little (ok, actually quite large) glider parts from balsa wood.

The deal is that during some fair, little kiddies (and people like me) will get to glue these parts together to complete these gliders and fly them :D. Yes, I will be there, even if it means I have to dress up to pass myself off as a kindergartener.

And yes, multi processor machines own compiling, and you.

I am going to cry

I just spent the WHOLE day building GNOME. Like I said, I had to move to another system, and this box is built to be stable and not bleeding edge. Well, that pretty much sucks, as there is no eye candy.

So, like your usual geek, I decided to install a new GNOME. Now, I am not talking about some cheap “binary download over writing existing software” style install. I am talking about the real deal. More sadly, though I am the admin, I can’t just go around overwriting system files as I please to retain the “stability” of the box. And it’s sad, with gcc 2x as it’s primary compiler.

Not caring, I built the WHOLE DEAL within my home space. Glibc and gcc up through mozilla. HELL I EVEN HAVE totem playing an mpeg stream. Cool, so I get Epiphany on MOZ 1.5b! up and load everyone’s favorite gnome news site, footnotes.

Headline? GNOME 2.4 is out. Sure it’s faster on a quad processor box but, sigh, I need to go to bed.

It’s late, I’m awake and

I don’t know what it is
That makes me feel alive
I don’t know how to wake
The things that sleep inside
I only wanna see the light
That shines behind your eyes

I hope that I can say
The things I wish I’d said
To sing my soul to sleep
And take me back to bed
You want to be alone
When we could be alive instead

Hmm…

This is not good. I’ve dropped things quite a few times. Things seemed normal so far, but suddenly, my laptop seems to have taken offence and is beginning to misbehave. Right now, I am not typing this from my trusty computer, but some other box.

The connection between the adapter and the socket for it on the laptop is totally screwed (I’d like to say “for no real reason”, but it’s my, hmm.. handling). It’s currently “just” not connected, and ends up arcing as a result. This has serious consequences as within 5 seconds, that area of the computer is too hot to touch (definitely not good) and the thermal sensors go haywire and all the fans come on making it sound like a helicopter.

So, I’ve slowly started moving my data out before sending it to hp. I think it’s going to be a lot harder than I thought. Enter the model number, the serial number, the manufacturer number, the this, the that etc. Carefully find each one, enter in different forms.

BEEP! Sorry, that combination of numbers is not good for us.

Damn it, I want my computer to be happy again that’s all.

*Runs back to trying ALL permutations of ALL numbers showing up anywhere near the computer.*

Muahaha

Due to, I assume, lack of entrants, this week’s “Picture of the week” is mine. Mine I say. Muahahahahah.

Check it out while it’s still up here. Sure, they spelt my name wrong and didn’t publish my rant about the licensing and things, but hey, they’re not geeks, just normal folk.

Even more annoying, since it’s in a frame, the direct link just takes you to that portion of the page. To see all of it in its (not so) glory, you need to follow a more arduous route: www.umich.edu/~isa/ :: follow the link to the “leisure” section (on the top navigation menu) :: click the “photo of the week” link on the left navigation menu.

Phew.

Tennis and all that

Hmm.. I watched some more of the US Open today, and it felt weird, very. Again, against all reason, I was totally rooting for Roddick’s opponent to win.

This was strange for two reasons. First, it’s JUST a sport. I normally never even follow, let alone take sides, let alone take sides and totally pin all hopes on that person, cheer, or get so involved that it affects me. Again, all of this happened during today’s final as I was rooting for Roddick’s opponent.

Then it hit me, it had nothing to do with the “other” guy. I didn’t even know his name.

It was just that I wanted Roddick to not win.

Again, that had nothing to do with Roddick.

For some strange reason, I think it has something to do with Mandy Moore.

Now what she’s got to do with anything either, I don’t know.

I guess I’ve got to stop analysing and learn to enjoy.. *shudder* sport.

But is this more fun?

Crash and Idle

This is the fastest I’ve ever burnt out, ever. Actually, I don’t remember ever burning out ever. That’s, obviously, not because I am super human, but because I’ve never really pushed it.

I mean, what good would that have done? (Besides probably the unimportant things like over achieving, becoming rich and famous and all that.)

This week has been, I have to say it, more than what I can take. I’ve been leaving early early in the morning and returning late late in the night (yes, repeating the words, not as typos, but to emphasize, how early and how late). Yes, smoke and mirror away the numbers, and you just have to trust me on it being really early or late.

Anyway, I’m not cut out for galavanting across campus on different bus routes to catch consecutive classes from the time I wake to the time I sleep, and getting work done in the remaining time. What remaining time you say?

What work I say.

So the weekend’s been nothing more than laaate waking and idling. Re cooperating sort of thing. I’ve also drastically dropped the course load, to make more time for real work. Notice I never ever said the classes were too much for me to handle intellectually. I just said I am not cut out physically to actually handle being there at the right time each time through out the day.

In this down time however, I’ve got quite a bit of tennis watching in. Sports don’t matter, and I normally never get involved in what’s going on, but COME ON, Nalbandian should have won.

Sure, he served slower, didn’t hit the ball as hard, just kept the ball in play until the other guy screwed up, among other things.

But it’s just no fun when the crowd favorite wins you know?

Also, saw some totally bogus program on MTV2 about what I thought was on the greatest bands of all time. I was all furious over the peoples’ votes, but then realized, after 3 near heart-attacks, that it was just a poll based on the “greatest bands” that had their greatest string of commercial success during the post-MTV era, circa 1981.

Yeah right.

Web stuff

Ahh yes, another hectic day. Didn’t do too much besides the ordinary worth talking about. It’s at these times, I hope, that pictures can come to a rescue.

Here are a couple of pictures of different sites that I’ve worked on. “Worked on” is an ambiguous term. The truth is all my sites have been stolen from different locations, to varying degrees. But no, nothing majorly illegal, I do it when they’ve said it’s ok to, and credit back or whatever is required of the license.

Aesthetica is a forum that’s been dead over a year. It was a phpBB powered forum. Yes, it was inactive.

And now I am fooling around with something called “espeek.”

I found a template I liked on css Zen Garden and decided to use it as a framework for an MT powered blog for someone else. As is obvious, it requires a lot more work.

It’s 4:30 in the morning and …

Here I go, still scratching around the same old hole
My body feels young but my mind is very old
So what do you say?
You can’t give me the dreams that are mine anyway
You’re half the world away
Half the world away

I’ve been lost I’ve been found but I don’t feel down.
No I don’t feel down.

I am timeless

Well, that’s not entirely accurate. What I meant to say is, I am without a watch. I’ve had my trusty watch for a very long time, and it has given me very little trouble. Of course, I’ve had to change the strap a couple of times, and the batteries a few times, but hey, it has worked so far. About a month or so ago? just before my Albuquerque trip, the batteries started dying again, and it failed BANG IN THE MIDDLE of my talk.

It is weird, I use (depend on) my watch more than most people. Next to google, it is my brain’s closest friend by being an ‘off line’ data store containing (seemingly important but actually unnecessary) information like people’s contact information and birthdays and all that sort of thing. It helps keep my mind freer for the hopefully more relevant things.

But, I do use it to tell time too, and often.

Which is why, when it died in the middle of the talk, I was more than a bit flustered. Of course, I then resorted to the more fundamental art of telling time by how bored the crowd looked. And, surprisingly, it worked. Judging how patents and so on work in this country, I think I can patent the idea of “telling time based on how bored your audience appears” and make a fortune some day. Some day.

It’s been dead since then, and I’d almost learned to live without it, apart from the sporadic “stare at empty wrist hoping to see the time” syndrome. I’ve just been too lazy to do anything about it. I assumed I could get by, and yes, I was wrong.

Today was one of the more hectic days and I rushed in and out of five? or so (with four of them being fairly advanced math analysis) classes. Not fun when they are in totally different parts of campus and I didn’t really know what time it was most of the while, which resulted in some odd, and slightly embarrassing, class entry/exit times.

I have to get it fixed. Of course, that’s easier said than done.

I also realized I’ve messed up, I think, by getting into engineering. I should have pursued pure physics/math instead. Damn it, those people are so much cooler than we can ever be. Even the halls and the buildings just radiated a “we know more than you people” sort of glow, complete with the “we just love knowing, and we don’t stop as soon as we know ‘just enough’ to make a product, or write a program, or design a circuit… like you lowly engineers”.

Sure, half of my degrees should make me a hybrid, like I halfway belong with them. But it’s still not as pure as it could have been.

No, it isn’t.

And one of the cooler things that could have happened did happen today. As I was running around those older, feel more “grand university”ish halls, absolutely random people (lying down in the corridors with their all free software stickers plastered laptops and so on) were all smiles, starting random conversations, gesturing (something vaguely resembling a thumbs-up) and so on. Why? I was in my friendly Free Software, Free Society shirt.

Again, if these normal people (complete with the ones with hair all over their face and beards upto their knees) can see, recognise (the importance), and strike up a civilized conversation on some geeky topic, why can’t the engineers?

They’re just pseudo geeks, they don’t really know or really care. Just fake it.

Yes, it’s probably just me but

I was looking into some of last month’s site statistics and here is something interesting, to me. Out of the top three browsers to hit my site, two are gecko based. Mozilla Firebird (now Firefox) and everybody’s favorite (except the GNOME dev team :() gecko browser, galeon.

2995: Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; en-US; rv:1.4b) Gecko/20030429 Mozilla Firebird/0.6

2675: Mozilla/4.0 (compatible; MSIE 6.0; Windows NT 5.1; T312461; .NET CLR 1.0.3705; .NET CLR 1.1.4322)

2109: Mozilla/5.0 (X11; U; Linux i686) Gecko/0 Galeon/1.3.3

Yes, it is just me. And I know you don’t care. Move along now, nothing here.

Fall

It was cold today morning. No, I don’t know how cold. I don’t want to know. All I know is that it was cold. Damn, I hope it just doesn’t get worse and worse from now on until it hits subzero (in their evil units) temperature. Sure it’s very, very pretty, but very, very annoying.

It did get better towards mid day though, I think. I have been cooped up indoors since then anyway, so I don’t know how warm (read ‘not cold’) it got.

Point being, it is fall already. Classes have started and I am currently rushing to 6 or so and attempting 7. Yes, it’s unnecessary strain on the mind, but it is something I do each term till I slowly back off until I hit that sweet spot, where I know I won’t die with work and can do moderately decently. Just what is moderately decently you say? I don’t quite know.

Anyway, I assume work and so on will come to a grinding halt for a little while at least, while these things reach a steady state.

I just thought about it, since I brought up ‘fall’. I’ve decided I prefer how the weather was where I’m originally from, and you DON’T HAVE TO SEE WEATHER NEWS, EVER. Because it’s always going to be very hot. That’s the weather report, on ANY given day. The way it should be. Sure, we don’t have “seasons” where plants shed their leaves, but hell, it’s so hot we barely have plants.

Since things like these always come in groups to exponentially increase their irritation factor, along with the changing weather (for the worse) and the suddenly quantum jumped courseload, there are the quintessential rommie issues. I don’t think I have anything particularly against ‘a’ roomie. I think I’ve begun to detest the very concept of a roomie. This dawned on me when I ran out of hot water a very short 40 minutes into my shower. Sure, it’s no one’s fault, but it wouldn’t have happened if roomies didn’t exist.

Yes, next plan is to rob a bank or whatever and get my own place. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nothing personal, it’s just, the concept that I’m beginning to not stand.

Before that, I am seriously considering changing the blog name to ‘the trials and tribulations of your usual grad student’ or something similar.

Bonding, Arrr!

Today was fun. Left all the (now settling) chaos at home to spend some time at my aunt’s place. Which was different because the people usually here left for the *labour day weekend and I am spending time here with another cousin.

Yes, by saying it like this, I am somehow trying to smoke and mirror away the fact that I have fewer cousins than can be counted on the fingers of one hand. And the number who I actually have interacted with, and been in close geographic proximity (over a moderately significant period of time) doesn’t even need a finger of a hand.

With this scheme of things, I can’t see why my parents should expect me (or theirs’ them) to try to pull off any sort of “normal” level interaction any time soon. It is hard. My world is not the same. I don’t have 40 or something cousins living in homes right accross the street. No, I have very few, and in totally different parts of the world.

It’s not that I plan to use this as a reason for not trying. Ah, well, that’s a lie. I not only plan to, I do.

Today however, was an extremely pleasant change. Hung out, did.. stuff. Fun stuff. Among other things, caught the Pirates of the Carribean. Yeah, we were the oldest people there, but it was one of the funniest movies I have seen in a while.

Thank you, almost everybody I know who’d seen the movie, for the rave reviews (complete with the implicit, you will see it).

Of course, since classes and so on begin in a bit, life should, well, become more.. predictable. Predictable is good. Schedules are good. I like my life all mundane, predictable, and planned.

And, totally unrelated like the last thought, I was catching some US Open action today. I was wondering why my parents didn’t name me something cool, like Anastasia Myskina… besides the obvious getting mocked and horribly beaten in high school of course.

(*I will resist yankeefying my spellings for as long as I can.)

Fun life

Life’s been.. oddly fun. After galavanting around doing very little in terms of real work over most of the summer, the past couple of weeks have been pretty hectic. Work started off slowly and has accelerated quickly to the point of almost overwhelming.

It’s been mostly fun though.

I am getting used to this “jumping into the deepest, murkiest, most shark infestedest waters I can find, and hoping I don’t die” approach to things. Which, roughly translated in my world is, three dimensional, anisotropic, inhomogeneous, nonlinear, multivariate, large deformation, multiple interacting species with growth/resorption/remodelling and what not problems which involve a good deal of tensor (variational multivariate?) calculus, extreme numerical methods, and most scary, mucking around with the associated FORTRAN implementation (or even scarier, the interfacing between my C’isms and existing FORTRAN’isms.. ack!)

Like I was saying, it’s mostly fun.

So, like the usual grad student, I practically live here. I don’t have time for “real life” nonsense. I don’t give a damn either. But to some others out there who have little else to do, this seems odd to comprehend. Take the (now ex) roomie for instance. I get something like this via email when I ask for a couple of days to go through before signing anything with these fishing* retards:

“I personally would like to get this thing done with as soon as possible as for the last 2 weeks I have been running around trying to get it settled, I’ve had little time for anything else.”

First, HELLLLOO, genius with the extreme sentence construction skills – How about attempting to split 3-4 line sentences into 2 or 3 smaller ones? (And what’s pasted above is after obvious? typo removal.)

Anyway, oh, so he is the busy one is he? What am I supposed to do, oh booh hoo I should do it ASAP because he needs to get back to his life?

Hello, genius, you caused the problem, not me. I shouldn’t even be helping fix anything. What’s so hard to comprehend – “You break it, your problem fixing it”.

Like I said, life’s been mostly fun

…once all this unnecessary noise is turned off.

(* Replace ‘fish’ in fishing with any other four letter word you see fitting)